I second what PadmaVonSamba said about keeping an open mind.
Try not to get too uncomfortable from any of the symbolism and give it a little time to percolate before you make a decision whether to stick around or not.
Sometimes, your own history & baggage can really distort how you view things.
Sometimes, you just gotta give something time to percolate before you can really see it for what it is, on its own terms, without your own prejudices getting in the way.
PadmaVonSamba wrote:In some Shin schools,
Meditation is regarded as a "self-powered" activity, and thus, futile.
Yeah, but meditation out of gratitude is totally legit.
Knowing the Japanese mentality, shifting from "jibun wo migaku" 自分を磨く(self improvement) to "on" 恩 (gratitude) as motivation is sheer genius imho.
Improves not only motivation, but the relinquishing of the self...