I can say I am better off generally speaking since I took up this practice. More recently I have had to change my sleeping habits, I am not a teen but still, having to wake up at 5 am seemed a living hell to me, moving my precious time around to do the very topic of this thread, chant. But I can actually wake and chant now, first thing. No big deal? to me it is. And actually getting ready for sleepy time at 8 or 9 when my video games beckon. Im a lazy guy, that little dose of discipline is a huge deal to me. It came more from the organization of time devoted to chanting, rather than the chanting itself, but I feel like that is a part of the process.
Something bad may happen to my family (or not, I dislike not knowing) these days, I don't want to say what, but as a guy prone to anxiety, that too is not as big a deal as it would be before I chanted. I eat better, exercise more, and am less antisocial and have less of a lame personality, more willing to say things when normally I would not, when I needed to or when I should. I appreciate nature more and developing and interest in gardening.
I am still marred by bad habits of mind that I developed in my childhood, teens, and the past few years, but slowly I can actually be more optimistic.
"Don't talk like one of them, your're not. Even if you'd like to be. To them you are just a freak, like me. They need you right now, but when they don't they will cast you out, like a leper. See their morals, their code, its a bad joke, dropped at the first sign of trouble. They are only as good as the world allows them to be. I'll show you when the chips are down, these...civilized people...they'l EAT each other. see I'm not a monster, I'm just ahead of the curve".-The Joker.