I can say I am better off generally speaking since I took up this practice. More recently I have had to change my sleeping habits, I am not a teen but still, having to wake up at 5 am seemed a living hell to me, moving my precious time around to do the very topic of this thread, chant. But I can actually wake and chant now, first thing. No big deal? to me it is. And actually getting ready for sleepy time at 8 or 9 when my video games beckon. Im a lazy guy, that little dose of discipline is a huge deal to me. It came more from the organization of time devoted to chanting, rather than the chanting itself, but I feel like that is a part of the process.
Something bad may happen to my family (or not, I dislike not knowing) these days, I don't want to say what, but as a guy prone to anxiety, that too is not as big a deal as it would be before I chanted. I eat better, exercise more, and am less antisocial and have less of a lame personality, more willing to say things when normally I would not, when I needed to or when I should. I appreciate nature more and developing and interest in gardening.
I am still marred by bad habits of mind that I developed in my childhood, teens, and the past few years, but slowly I can actually be more optimistic.
I seem to have been like a boy playing on the sea-shore, and diverting myself in now and then finding a smoother pebble or a prettier shell than ordinary, whilst the great ocean of truth lay all undiscovered before me.
- Sir Isaac Newton