The more I had to give up, even dharma-related events, the more frustrated and resentful I felt.
The more and resentful I felt, the more I had to look at where those feeling came from.
The more I looked at where those feeling came from, the more I saw it was based on attachment
and when I looked at that attachment I saw it all came down to clinging to "me".
"Why should I have to give up these precious, hard to find teachings, this one-to-one contact with a great teacher,
which will no doubt turn me into an enlightened bodhisattva who will then benefit uncountable suffering sentient beings
just because I have to do some stupid bullshit that somebody else wants?"
That is when I realize how much patience and generosity it takes, and how much clinging I have to let go of.
Years later, it has paid off, and I am told , 'why don't you go off to that buddhist thing you were talking about,
while I go visit my folks?"
and now everybody is happy.
Profile Picture: "The Foaming Monk"
The Chinese characters are Fo (buddha) and Ming (bright). The image is of a student of Buddhism, who, imagining himself to be a monk, and not understanding the true meaning of the words takes the sound of the words literally. Likewise, People on web forums sometime seem to be foaming at the mouth. Original painting by P.Volker /used by permission.