robaire wrote:it's confusing because you're placing trust in language, not feelings.
You possible mean in words and not remaining "experience" (sorry, if misunderstood)
When we read/write words, in whatever which language, we can get a powerful experience and we are completely disappeared in that, but as soon as the words are vanished, the experience as well is fading. We can continue so whole life long reading and reading and at the end when we seem to change bodies, leave empty handed as no text we can take with us.
"Intellectual investigations can continue endlessly and fruitlessly like a small bird that flies off the ship in the middle of the ocean in an attempt to find sky's limit. The sky is so vast that the bird will tire and have no choice but to return to the ship failing to accomplish its goal. Similarly we will never find an end to mental fabrications".
Therefore we must direct our very heart to the Guru to melt in devotion-compassion-insight.
“Sentient beings, self and others, enemies and dear ones—all are made by thoughts. It is like seeing a rope and mistaking it for a snake. When we think that the rope is a snake, we are scared, but once we see that we are looking at a rope, our fear dissipates. We have been deluded by our thoughts. Likewise, mentally fabricating self and others, we generate attachment and aversion.” ~Dilgo Khyentse Rinpoche