DeepFriedFunk wrote:Daily meditation and practice is essential
I have found (and trying very hard to avoid pride/self importance) ....
just practice and dedicate the merit ...
I have noticed a warm fuzz of energy centering at my heart and moving in all directions to each extremity that I can generate at will.
You can probably just generate chi very easily. However I wouldn't play with it (and Buddhist teacehrs do not generally focus on it) and don't sit around in the cold (you can still get sick).
Also, after a long meditation (particularly on Bodichitta) session my parents behave differently, my cats are more attracted to me (and one is very timid) and I also have the most timid Crested Gecko (I cannott handle him because he gets terrified and poops on me) but he watches me meditate and after lets me stroke him, which he never did before.
I just want to learn how to use this to help other people.
Just keep meditating on Bodhicitta and live Bodhicitta as deeply as possible every moment.
Also, I would like to explore more - can anyone give me literature or teachings into using these skills with more focus and success?
Shantideva and the 37 Practices of a Bodhisattva
Should I speak to my teachers? Or will they think I am being egotistical?
Yes, maybe, but do it anyway.
Or is this all normal and just in my head?
No, not really and maybe/maybe not.