flowerbudh wrote:Clearing my head isn't the biggest struggle for me during meditation, staying still is! My legs jump up at every little noise or discomfort. The deeper I go, the more my nerve endings resist... it's like they're screaming, "No! Don't transcend sensory reality." Hehe. Help?
I would consider that maybe what you're thinking of as "clear state" or "clarity" is not really "deep meditation" in the sense of "deep relaxation", but an artificial state in which you try to keep things OUT.
Actually you should just let things flow and don't cling to them.
If you try to reach a state without thoughts, that will always be kind of a forced state, and you will always build up tension this way. Of course, if tension is very high, even small noises or outer events can disturb the whole thing.
Another aspect of body-movements may of course be due to cleansing of your chi channels during relaxation. But if this was the case, you wouldn't have this correlation with external noises, so I don't think that's an aspect that's so important for you at the moment.
Anyway, whether it is due to cleansing effects or due to outer stress: Don't take bodily effects too serious. As meditation is about working with or recognizing MIND and not bodily effects, forgetting your body and not caring about such things might be a way to deal with it. Progressing towards a state of relaxation might be uncomfortable and even be a state you might be unfamiliar with, especially in the beginning, but you really don't need to worry about it.
I'd recommend you to go on with your practice and not forget that you should relax and let things flow
Goes into the same direction as Jesse's advice, but maybe different words shed another light on things.
By the way, the small ego-"You" can actually not actively transcend anything, so I think that what you're trying to do is to force your thoughts and your body to some state, favouring this semblance-tranquil state above other possible states, and it's no wonder that you encouter resistance this way. Transcending things is nothing you and your thoughts could do .. but is something that happens automatically and naturally by recognizing things as they are out of a state of non-clinging and relaxation.
Hope that helps
Good luck and all the best with your practice,