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pray for me to just get it together

Posted: Tue Dec 24, 2013 12:01 am
by Dharmabrother
may pujas, sadhanas, and many blessings come to you all

and may pujas sadhanas and blessings come to me. i have been in poverty for many years. and last year around this time, and the next month afterward was a very hard time for me. I thank everyone who helped my grandmother last year, and I wish i could thank everyone personally. I did a lot of things to myself, to get to dire straights. Im homeless now, I am in default with the U.S. Department of Education for the Fafsa loans, I owe the university money, and I have no transportation. In my area. there is a transit system, but it is not very good, due to funding, and a working vehicle, I DEFINITELY need. I have the grace of strangers, and my girlfriend who defintely helps me when im in this dire straight. I just ask, that prayers, and ngakpas, and lamas and maybe some dzambhalas and some aleveiation completely of my dire poverty and my dire situation of a Job, car, a place to stay, and to pay my debts off ($10,000) at the least just somehow comes my way, and that

MOST IMPORTANTLY, DOORS WILL OPEN FOR ME..

thank you all I couldnt repay you all Enough

Michael Stovall (Dharmabrother)

Re: pray for me to just get it together

Posted: Tue Dec 24, 2013 2:24 am
by Lindama
Sending warm wishes and blessings Michael, hang in there! Wishing you all the best in the New Year.

:namaste:

Re: pray for me to just get it together

Posted: Tue Dec 24, 2013 3:29 am
by Schrödinger’s Yidam
I've been there. Good luck.

Re: pray for me to just get it together

Posted: Tue Dec 24, 2013 4:42 am
by reddust
I've been homeless several times. Don't give up :heart: :hug:

Re: pray for me to just get it together

Posted: Tue Dec 24, 2013 5:09 am
by Lindama
ok, I was homeless for a week, I got off easy... sleeping in state parks with my cats in the car scared to death.... I kept going because 1. the cats needed to be fed AND 2. I didn't know the end of the story.

I was given several titles for books during that time. The first was "It's Okay Sweetheart"... waiting to be written. The two other titles were great, but I'll have to dig in my journals for them. First things first.

It took quite a while to come back, so keep at it.....

:namaste:

Re: pray for me to just get it together

Posted: Tue Dec 24, 2013 5:58 am
by lobster
I will do puja for you. Others will too I am sure. Thanks for the opportunity.

Happy Christmas :smile:

Re: pray for me to just get it together

Posted: Tue Dec 24, 2013 2:02 pm
by kirtu
Unfortunately many people are going through extremely difficult circumstances.

Where do you live? You absolutely must find some kind of employment. However, since there are no jobs in the US this is a problem. If you live in or near a large city, you can begin tutoring, esp. mathematics and have some part-time income. If you can tutor mathematics you will find a decent demand as adults need to pass tests for nursing (TEAS & NCLEX) and PRAXIS I (basic teaching test) and often fail due to poor math performance. Additionally the level of math performance in school at all levels is abysmal so kids and young adults often need tutors. And people < 35 aspiring to enter the military often need tutoring to pass the two math related portions of the ASVAB.

Kirt

Re: pray for me to just get it together

Posted: Tue Dec 24, 2013 2:35 pm
by padma norbu
will do

Re: pray for me to just get it together

Posted: Tue Dec 24, 2013 6:52 pm
by Grigoris
I have been (basically) unemployed for three years. If it wasn't for the kindness of my girlfriend...

I will remember you in my prayers.
:namaste:

Re: pray for me to just get it together

Posted: Wed Dec 25, 2013 5:27 pm
by Dharmabrother
Thank you everyone for your thoughts and prayers:

I wanted to locate a ngakpa, or a lama, to just get some prayers going, and get some help to alleviate my situation.. Heck, even a native American healer told me the lama's or Shamans of Tibet would help beings in dangerous situations.

on this holiday day.. i will be thankful of what i have now

Re: pray for me to just get it together

Posted: Wed Dec 25, 2013 5:29 pm
by Dharmabrother
i relocated back to northeast ohio, near canton, ohio :tantrum: :toilet:

Re: pray for me to just get it together

Posted: Wed Dec 25, 2013 6:53 pm
by Ayu
You were in my prayers today.

When I had a very painful situation, I found out a meditation that gives relief to me quite immediately:

I sit down and imagine a field of people with exactly the same desease like i have in that moment. There are in reality thousands and millions of people with just the same problem as I have. Then I start tonglen-breathing:

- Think of all their (including my) suffering as black smoke. Inhale it. So they (and I) get free of it in that moment.
- The inhaled black smoke strikes a little black nut which is situated in my heart. This black nut is my own selfishness.
- As soon as the smoke strikes the nut, it bursts.
- Out of bursting, a wish-fulfilling jewel comes out. It was hidden in the nut of selfishness.
- Now it radiates beams of light and joy. All darkness vanished.
- This light and fortune I breathe out - onto ALL the suffering people (including me).
- Great joy in giving it to all of them, in seeing them becoming happy,
- until the next breathing in...

In the beginning, it is good to train this slowly. Maybe first just trying to give the light and enjoy the arising brightness.
Later, if one is used to it, it goes quite quickly:
Black smoke breathing in, bursting black nut, exposed wish-fulfilling gem, joyfull light breathing out, giving it to all the suffering people, seeing how their pains are being soothed - then next breath: black smoke, little nut, bright gem, light flowing to the suffering breathing out, looking, - breathing in black smoke, hitting the nut, creating more and more light out of joy... And so on.
The focus is on breathing out. Breath should flow naturally.

If you are interested in it, you should look for further informations about Tonglen. There are many books, sites and teachers.

Re: pray for me to just get it together

Posted: Thu Dec 26, 2013 3:32 pm
by lisehull
:good:

Re: pray for me to just get it together

Posted: Thu Dec 26, 2013 8:08 pm
by Dharmabrother
Thank you

thank you


THANK YOU

my dreams have been very nice to me.. i have seen the wish fulfilling jewel.. but the dzambhalas and a few buddahs who give wish fulfilling jewels.. please keep praying for me and pray for auspicious things to happen