by adinatha » Thu Apr 28, 2011 1:54 am
I've had a meditation practice going since probably five years old. My grandfather is a yogi from Varanasi. My family has its own lineage. It was basic, but less can be more. Besides that, its the oldest on Earth. India is basically a Puru project. In some crazy mix of karma. All kshatriyas descend from our lineage. At least for me, initially the visionary experience was something gestalt. Then, I started looking into everything to see if anything matched up with my inner experience. For me, vajrayana/atiyoga were it. Nothing else quite resonated. I suppose the fact that I have a yogic family background I definitely had a bias for the lineages of methods involving channels and winds. That was a big part of my life for a long time. In my earliest memories of meditation practice, I just intuitively could feel that there was a subtler way. I also felt very strongly that the hindu yoga idea of moksha was unrefined or rudimentary somehow. But whenever I would talk to masters in various traditions, the ubiquitous response has always been to have strict lineage dogma crammed down my throat. I have always kept my mouth shut and deferred to master such and such, and kept an open mind while they showed me everything they had. When I would see something that just didn't fit my visionary experience, I would have to bail. Overtime, I had subsequent visionary experiences that build on one another and on my encounter with buddhism, and finally has landed me square into the lap of Atiyoga, the elder, from Swat. I'm not totally sold on the terma tradition. Basically, simplicity and freedom is my measuring rod. Simple and profound are synonyms for me. If there is profounder simpler understanding than the one I have; intuitively is trust myself to see that and will gravitate in that direct with force.
CAW!