I have read it many times that different individuals have affinity with different Sutras that they can relate to (of course, after having already affiliated themselves with the Buddhist sect of their liking, which in this case is Mahayana). How do we find which Sutras we are attracted to personally?
Personally, I have had times when I started reading a particular Sutra, but gave mid-way or even after a few chapters, to go for some other Sutra. I read the Lankavatara Sutra, and found it to be a store of many ideas about consciousness, but somehow never maintained the study (because its so huge and often I was unable to make time). I then went on to read Shurangama Sutra, which I merely skimmed through after the first chapter, then to Samdhinirmocana Sutra, and finally now I have started reading Lotus Sutra (because Buddhists often talk very highly about it).
The repetitive nature of the Sutra, with half of the Sutra trying to explain the merits of preserving the Sutra, and the other half talking about ethics often leads me to abandon the study (yes, sometimes its boredom). Do you think I have no affinity with these Mahayana Sutras?
After trying to study various Mahayana Sutras, as mentioned above, I made a stronger resolve to persevere in study the Lotus Sutra - for which I bought a hard copy and already completed the first two chapters. But as I started reading the third chapter, I also came across an academic article investigating the things that were fraudulently added in the Lotus Sutra at a later time during the early stages of Mahayana Sutra (it says that the third chapter was added later on). Also came across contradictions ( like http://www.google.co.in/url?sa=t&rct=j&q=&esrc=s&source=web&cd=1&ved=0CCgQFjAA&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.elb-studycenter.org%2Fimages%2Fmatsumoto.pdf&ei=sqJiUoL2AoOErAeF2oDADw&usg=AFQjCNGXttgb30o7HHU-OqtM-k2vH7W-Gw&bvm=bv.54934254,d.bmk
). Now I am confused and wondering what to do. My study of Lotus sutra has stalled for some time, and I thinking of taking a more critical approach in studying it, instead of the "blind faith" approach that is the most promoted in Buddhist circles). Should I abandon the study and look for some other Sutras that resonate with me or that make sense?