Tony said: "That the three poisons were the three kayas. Therefore everything was symbolic...
...everything was the symbolic teacher..everything reflected absolute truth."
Tony, My feeling is that you are looking Janus-faced at this issue and are in the midst of a little muddle. 1) The three poisons are the three kayas if and only if
you have the key view of self-liberation via rigpa. 2) Everything is symbolic is the attitude of deluded conceptuality that still holds to self and other, but
if one is an arya bodhisattva then one can receive the symbolic transmission from the sambhogakaya and then symbol-ultimate meaning are nondual. 3) Everything is the symbolic teacher if you accept the truth of karma. 4) Everything reflects absolute truth if you can remain nondistracted from the dharmakaya. 5) Tears to your eyes is the reaction of a fortunate disciple who has gained faith in the buddhadharma and in the teacher, but
still clings to self and other. While striding upon the path, it is common to become disoriented. After all, we are only talking about your infinite lives in samsara. Of course, all these infinite illusions are not just going to give up, hence, your upwelling of fear and your understanding of the remedy regarding demons. You are in the ocean. The waves are high. The raft is upon you. You are holding onto the rope, and have pulled your body half-way up precariously pulling away from the choppy seas. Hold on tight to that rope (rigpa), and the raft (faith in karma and the three jewels), and you will get to the shore (complete nondistraction from rigpa).