padma norbu wrote:
By that I mean that we really have no idea what enlightenment is and have no real verifiable proof of what Buddhahood in fact is. If it's kind of a "magical act" we will through our thoughts and actions by dropping our layers of karmic obscurations, well these obscurations are the only world we know, so whatever is left after they're gone (ie. the deathless state of Buddhahood) is really a leap of faith that it's something good. Buddhism, at times, seems suicidal to me; it's like saying we don't know what it is, but it's got to be better than this... and so, for that reason, we are willing to annihilate our entire existence including the possibility of rebirth and, for renunciates, even this very life itself.
This is exactly why I find having a master that one can really trust and have confidence in is very useful. I know that my master is different from the ordinary and it is on that that I felt that there is hope yet for me to be get out of the "ordinary".
I have every confidence that no master could stop my brain from working the way it does. Namkhai Norbu is great, imo, and I am happy with him. I am analytical by nature and nothing is going to stop me from considering the possibility of being wrong except possibly the development of siddhis with which I routinely see the truth of all things just as sure as I am sitting here now (although I have been known to question whether or not I am really sitting here!). Long ago, I realized, for example, that if some magnificent and seemingly benevolent being appeared before me and by some sort of darshan filled me with confidence and love and knowledge that he was a benevolent deity, unless he replaced my 'self' with something else, he could not stop me from skeptical thoughts like "sure, he seems nice, but is he really Satan? An alien?" Etc. It could be a classic Fireclown
I realize all of this sounds very negative, but I don't mean it to be. This is just how I think and I am quite honest about what I think.