IshNavaya wrote:It's weird, but I keep expecting something to shake me enough that I will lose my peace, and each time I find myself disturbed, I can regain calm fairly quickly.
People who try to be mindful will feel very disturb when they lost their mindfulness.
People try so hard to do this and don't do that, as if there is a real boundary that separating this and that.
If you can see that mindful and not mindful are actually having same nature, you will be relax and free from the worry whether you are mindful or not, simply because you can see their nature is same.
If you can see that doing this and don't doing that are actually having the same nature, you will go beyond doing this and don't doing that. You will be free from worry
You keep expecting something to shake you, because you think there is something that can shake you.
If you can see that something which is shaking you, something which is going to shake you, and something which is protecting you are having the same nature (which is fundamentally having no base), you will free from your worry about disturbance.
You will be just relax and open naturally without any efforts.