If I may say something - try to see if you can visit some Buddhist centers and do practice together with people.
Also, I found working with a qualified master very, very helpful.
As for the Buddhists forums.. well, you'll see for yourself but having years been on some, there's one general lesson I got: treat what people say with distance, learn from live Masters, face-to-face
Thanks for your concern. Your advice is sound. But, I am unable to leave the house without help, which limits my mobility.
In any case, don't worry about me. Although I have attended school, I consider myself more self taught than teacher taught. Being home alone much of the time gives me the opportunity to surf the net and learn, and lately I have been studying Buddhism, especially meditation. Without knowledge of Buddhism, I have contemplatively meditated nearly all my life, and already have a strong power of concentration. I thought of it as "Studying the situation." Moreover, a number of years ago, I learned that one's state of mind can be controlled to some degree. For example, controlling ones heart rate and blood pressure. Then, once I became angry to the point of loosing control, and realized that nothing in life was important enough to become so angry. Thus, I began to control my darkest feelings, including anger and sadness.
Since I began studying Buddhism, I learned of meditating to bring one's mind to a peaceful state, which helps one mediate their feelings in a more effective way than I had previously been doing. My daily meditation is already successful, and will improve with further practice.
I have already lived a full life, and now live as an old man whose health is slowly fading. The specter of death is my current teacher. If I can augment him with a lama or guru, I shall be very lucky; although, no human could be more demanding a teacher. Meanwhile, I shall enjoy studying the Buddha, Dharma, and Sangha in my own imperfect way.