Good day, everyone.
About six months ago, or so, I do not recall exactly, my daily meditation practice broke down. I went a few weeks without sitting, nor did I read dhamma. There was just a sudden halt that kind of took me by surprise, although I suppose it shouldn't have. Looking back, I do believe that I had taxed myself to much in trying to be a 'scholar' buddhist practitioner, when in fact I am a poor fit for that. Trying to learn pali, read the VM and the vimuttimagga, the nikayas, post here frequently, meditate, all the while maintaining two children and personal studies not connected with dhamma, proved to much. Something had to give.
Anyway, such a thing happens to many of us sooner or later, I suppose, so no big deal. But what has been a big deal is that I haven't been able to maintain a consistent meditation practice since. Some periods I can easily bring myself down to sit, other periods it's hard to convince myself. I've just grown to complacent with my lot in life, and find myself anticipating the day when the kids have grown and I can dispense with all but those things that are absolutely necessary for living. It is then, I imagine, that I'll get to it again.
We all know well the warning about death's sudden visit, however, and the length of my life is a mystery even to me.
So in light of a few recent realizations, the reminder death's suddenness being only one, I resolve here to meditate for one hour each evening for the next 30 days. Each day I will post and declare my success. I fancy that 30 hours meditation, with you good people as my witness, should be a good way to kick this problem of mine to the dirt.
After that I figure a minimum of 365 hours meditation per year shouldn't be to taxing.
What do you good people think?
Last edited by Reductor
on Wed Mar 21, 2012 6:58 am, edited 1 time in total.