I am not exactly the worldly type - I dont like anything about this world.
To re-iterate, do you think you've experienced anything this-worldly enough to know whether or not you like it?
since I haven't experienced anything other-worldly, I am kind of stuck here in this world. It is like being in a prison - you may hate the prison but it's all you got because you dont yet have the freedom to leave.
For me atleast, a state of 'prison' is a kind of inversion of shunyata, in which all meaningful possibilities are blocked off by the force of habitual tendencies or what have you. I can't see how 'being stuck in a world
' (my emphasis) can really mean anything, but on the other hand, the kind of impenetrable nothingness I'm talking about is by definition a 'stuck-y' state. As far as 'freedom to leave' goes, I guess it would be more a case of the apparent solidity dissolving as the causes of such an experience cease replicating, but the tricky thing with suffering is that hating it replicates it - self-evidently. I genuinely wonder if it's better to reflect on the impermanence, uselessness, and lack of necessity
of suffering, since bald acceptance as a motivation for meditative investigations such as this:
Look at the prison. Examine the nature of the prison. Look at why I hate the prison. Examine my feelings. Examine the nature of my feelings. Look at my mind (the source of the feelings). Examine the nature of my mind.
always seems a tall order.
Going back to 'this world', I wonder if it's only the enlightened
who are truly 'in' it, since the faculties of other beings -by definition- are clouded by their own private agenda..