chickenman wrote:how can i keep this feeling from slipping away so quickly? or, should i even worry about it? we don't want to be "grasping" now, do we. any thoughts?
Ofc you shouldn't be grasping after it, that's the whole problem. But you want to keep it. The question is, how to stop that noticing mechanism that initiates grasping and breaks the perfection. You need to figure it out yourself. I'm thinking how to explain it but I can't. Of course, let it go, relax, go with the flow... The point is to drop everything to the point you cannot drop more. Then you will settle in a "body" that walks without you walking, talks without you talking, eats without you eating. Is not conscious of what's going on, but responds perfectly. It is here all the time, but covered by this noticing, and "controlling" parasite. Without noticing you will naturally rest there, like you occasionally do. Most of meditation practitioners develop noticing, and staying in noticing state. No wonder they find no rest even after 20-30 years of practice.
How to settle when noticing comes up? Trust:
Linji wrote:Just put your heart at rest and seek nothing outside. When things come towards you, look at them clearly. Have faith in the one who is functioning at this moment, and all things of themselves become empty.
But, its not about "looking clearly" all the time! This is only a tool that you should use when noticing appears. Look at it and it will be released, than forget about "looking clearly", as it is not your job.
Longchenpa wrote:Though attachment, aversion, dullness, pride, envy may arise, fully understand their inner energy; recognize them in the very first moment, before karma has been accumulated. In the second moment look nakedly at this state and relax in its presence. Then whichever of the five passions arise becomes a pure presence, freed in its own place, without being eliminated.
See the process of noticing and its desire to remember, and don't let yourself be evolved in it. It is not your responsibility, nor your failure.