To keep it short, I lost a lot of weight that took me 12+ months and now I'm with my ideal/healthy weight. I feel perfectly fine most of the time, but since a few months I been having some really horrible episodes of binge eating, as in going to the closer 24/7 and just buy all the sweets and craving food that I can think of and eat it. Most of the days I just eat healthy and exercise as usual, but this episodes of binge eating happens a few times a week. And is not like I'm hungry, because obviously with the amount of food that I ate regularly is just enough, but this episodes could make me consume 2k+ calories in a few hours and still keep eating until I cannot eat more. I lost all the mindfulness, all the control that I have.
I've been thinking a lot lately about self-image, how I relate to food and other questions, trying different practical solutions (changing diet, hours, etc), but still happens. If funny, the last time that happen I was in a social meeting and my brain could not stop telling me to eat, could not even focus in the conversation that I was having.
Do you have any meditation that could help with that? Or any books/suttas/etc?